Hey whores this is really working. Life has been soooo crazy. Man lets see here i am workin at hempfest this year. Its going to kick so much ass. ya and i went to capitol hill blockparty it was so cool o man i already ranted on in my other journals but hey man. its so cool ya so i need a BF really bad. I am so pathetic. the only guys who like me are between the ages of 17-63. If any one is between the ages of 15-17 hey man i am open. I am so sad. I am such a ho bag.
washington my  peeps.

Oh jeeze how I loath having a G-sale. My father made me help set up and get ready for one. So tomarrow i get to deal with stupid ppl who say things like "DAAARRR.....HoW mUcH iS tHiS mOlE tRaP?" when the thing is like a golf club. DOOOOOOOOMM!!!! to all who question me! I think i am getting sick *sniffle* *cough* *cough*. 

yesterday was so prettyout. All though it was like 300 degrees out i still enjoyed it. I went down town agian. Note: most the summer i will probably spending most of my time down there. And that probably bye the end of this summer i will no it like the back of my hand. Anyways i went with my sister, my bro and his friend chris. Of course we went to the usual places like pik place market and then we went to the pier. We went to pirates plunder which is like chucky cheeses for older kids. Then there was some religious ppl who gave us this tour of there tent and the hole time i was getting this tour the guy giving it was like hitting on me. Hella creepy. it was almost like a wierd cult thing. Anyways then we got on the bus and there was this drunk guy with velcrow shoes who kept talking abou jumping out the bus window and regestering his escilade. it was so wierd and then when chris closed his eyes the guy was like are you tierd. Chris said yes and then the guys said ok well i will shut up then. Right after that he screamed PASS THE HEMP! we all look back like what the heck. Riding the bus is always interesting. I started skate boarding agian. I forgot how much fun it was. I guess the reason i stoped was cause iwas going through some hard times and lost all driving force. hmmmmm....ya yesterday night was alot of fun to ;).  

WHAT IS WITH TODAY!

Finally the day has come where i don't have to put up with the stupid jr. high school anymore. Ah i am a sophmore now and are much wiser *cough* *cough* bullshit *cough* and no right from wrong....hmmm...ya well i guess its off to ingelmoore to indulge in overly dramatic situations and find more things wrong with the world. The sad thing is even though jr.high was hell and i would never want to go through it agian i realize that i really had some good times. And i am looking forward to the up coming years. sure i am scared and i don't no what i am going to do or who i am  but i now see that thats all growing up figureing out where i am heading and what will come my way. I have finally become ok with the idea that i am growing up and that not everythings going to be ok. But that in its self is ok. I now know that the person i am today may not  be the  person i am 10 years from now (or at least i hope so) but that ppl change and so will i. ppl will die , get fat , drop out, do drugs, and that there are somethings that are out of my hands. but what i do with my life is what i choose no else does.  I am my own person. and as sappy as that sounds thats how i feel. At times i may deny it but in the end it what we do with ourselve is what counts.

Where are all the men dead in the heart or in the head?

Why don't they understand me? Why can't they hear me? I guess I'll never know.

Ok this was one of those really amazing weekends....Ok it all started on friday when i went  to this really cool party...first it really sucked cause there was these really assholy kids from lake washington high who came so me shawnacy and jenny left for a while..brought back alli. Alli thought it was stupid and left...they had a water fight and then all the guys dressed in drag...then this stoner guy nick from LWH came and drove us to jason's and almost crashed into ferris's moms car and almost plowed through jasons garge. jason couldn't come because of it..it was a blast.

 Then saterday came and the party was over...i went to country village with shawnacy and sat there for 6 hours and almost puked on the carousel thing i fell off it kinda hurt.....but it was fun then we went to alphys for dinner where her creepy cousin was hitting on me and gave me his wrist band...then we had to ride in the car with her drunken family where her 200 pound aunt was sitting on us....o jeeze it was insane....

and today i went to seattle with my sister..we took picks on the water front and then bought my bro and dad gifts for there holidays. and then went to the pike place market and found this indian head shop it was pretty fucking wierd. in fact there was like two head shops...but any ways we cought insense and then cought thebus home...this was one hell of a weekend...... and i can't wait tell later this summer because of all the kick ass partys.

This week has been incridible.....Monday i went to folk life. The hole festival makes you want to be a hippy or just not so normal....I feel so average so none cool there...But i love it....it a great feeling to be there..not to give a fuck...dance in the fountian and let go from everyday acerances.....I bought some really good insense and a holder and this wierd flute thing....HEMPFEST IS GOING TO BE SO COOL!!! 73 more days! And Seattle music fest only 64 more days! this summer is going to kick ass....ya but anyways on the bus back from folk life i had to sit buy this old lady that smelt like cow and mildew...and she was wearing this big fur coat and cow boy boots and kept telling me about how the 6 ice cream bars she ate earlier is giving her the shits.....o the madness..but it was fun.